I Fall SO Short

Church as really been challenging today. I like that it's challenging, but it's going to be difficult to change my life to meet the challenge. We're still talking about marriage and, I've got to admit, I've felt that my marriage was pretty much perfect...except in one area. Today's sermon hit on that area. The general topic was Radical Marriages: Meeting Each Other's Needs.
Her needs were:

• Kindness and Gentleness
• Conversation and Affection
• Loving Leadership

His needs were:

• Respect and Admiration
• Sexual Fulfillment
• Domestic Support

After the preacher talked about each person's needs, he asked us to evaluate our own performances. I know without a shadow of a doubt that I fall short on meeting Eric's needs. When I read verses that refer to the woman as the "weaker vessel" or being "submissive" to my husband, I get angry and defensive inside. I know that I want to be taken care of and that I want Eric to be the head of the household, but it seems so degrading. Like all I'm meant to do in life is cook, clean, take care of the kids, and meet Eric's NEEDS (if you know what I mean). Like I'm not supposed to have any personal goals, any thoughts or ideas, anything that doesn't serve someone else. I know it's not supposed to be like this and I have to get over this feeling so I'm just going to go for it. I'm going to try to live like the submissive, weaker person I guess I'm supposed to be. Even typing this fills me with dread, anger, and tears. But since it's Biblical I'm going to try to do it. And try to do it with a good attitude.