"Entrust to me everything that concerns you." When I read that I thought, "Hey, I'm a mom, a wife, and a teacher. Everything concerns me. I'm the worry wart." I have such a hard time trusting someone wholeheartedly. I know that God is the only person whose agenda is intended only to fulfill me and give me strength and knowledge and everything else I strive for. BUT I also have this nagging feeling that if I entrust everything to Him He can take it away and He will to show His all encompassing power. I hear about these people who lose their husbands and their children and I think that if it had been me, you might as well put me in a mental hospital because I would either go catatonic or cry nonstop. Tears well up in my eyes even considering the possibility of Kaleb being taken away from me. It's something I think about all the time. I am so thankful that I have a perfectly healthy son when so many other children struggle with illnesses, diseases, hunger, and hurt. Letting go of Kaleb is something that I'm going to have to work at every day. I know that God's plan will happen whether I give Him everything or not. I'm not controlling Kaleb's life at all by "holding" on to him. He's God's child.
That's just a rambling that's been on my heart.
1 Peter 5:6-7 "So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and at the right time he will lift you up in honor. Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares for you."
Psalm 118:24 "This is the day the Lord has made. We will rejoice and be glad in it."
1 Thessalonians 5:18 "Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you who belong to Christ Jesus."
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