I really feel like all of my posts are pretty lame and not nearly as interesting or deep as some of the ones I read. This one basically gives an update on what's been going on the past couple of days. Warning: I do talk about sex a little bit in this post so if you want to skip over it I'll let you know when it's safe again. Eric and I have taken a challenge initiated by a girl in our Sunday School class through a magazine article. The challenge is to have sex 7 days in a row. So far we've been successful. However, we edited the challenge. We're going to have sex everyday in July. I know what you're thinking, "WHAT?! EVERYDAY?" Yep, everyday. We're doing this for a couple of reasons. 1- It's how I can show Eric that I love him. 2- It's meant to bring us closer together. 3- We could really use the practice. 4- We're trying to have a baby. And that's all I'll say about that.
IT'S SAFE AGAIN
I had a total meltdown tonight. I was laying on the bed, Eric was there too, and Kaleb was playing with his trains. Kaleb kicked me in the mouth and I chomped off part of my cheek (super!) He got in trouble because he was being careless and was told to be sweet and drive his trains on the bed, not on people. About 4 seconds later he rams said train into my head. It hurt physically but it hurt my feelings more. I literally started crying because my almost 2 year old doesn't respect me. Then I started crying harder because I thought I was a bad mom who didn't spend enough quality time with her child. Then I started crying even more when Eric mentioned band camp. I'm telling you, I've never cried like that before. This was hiccupping, squeaky, high-pitched movie crying. Except it wasn't a pretty cry. We Massey girls don't pretty cry. We get red and splotchy and swollen. Anyway, I decided to take a bath so I got in our jacuzzi tub (that I never turn the bubbles on because they annoy me) and read and soaked for about half an hour. I feel better now, but really slothy.
Something else that's going on is Kaleb's "bubble." Ever since he was born he's had this little bump on his knee, a cyst really since it's under his skin. The pediatrician referred us to a dermatologist in Hattiesburg who basically said that if it wasn't bothering him then we shouldn't worry about it. For the first year of his life it mostly stayed skin-colored and every now and then got a little blue. Well, I looked at his legs today while I was changing his diaper and that sucker has gotten HUGE! It's also purple and blue like a bruise. I don't know whether or not to be worried about it because it used to get bruisy when he was a baby. But not like this. As the day wore on it got bigger and he would point to it and say "knee hurt." We decided to see what happens tonight and if it isn't better in the morning then Eric will take him to a doctor in Waynesboro and try to get a referral to a dermatologist in Meridian. I'm trying not to think about it because whenever I do I start imagining the worst. Cancer, tumors, St. Judes, chemo, etc. Obviously things that could have me freaking out in half a second.
And that's basically our update. Oh yeah, and we're going to have to buy a new air conditioning system sometime soon...maybe this week. Our is about 20 years old and is costing us too much a year to fix it. Okay, now that's our update.
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