Sit and Listen

For me, waiting quietly and patiently is next to impossible. I have epxerienced God's gentle whisper and it was good. But sometimes I feel like I need the earthquake, the burning bush, or the transfiguration. I feel like I need the big, showy conversations. In the book, it says, "My thoughts form silently in the depths of your being." There are times when a thought or idea will pop in my head and I'll question whether that was from God or just me. The quote above sounds to me like the thoughts I have are really formed by God. That's not to say that I don't make any of my own decisions. That would totally negate free will. But I shouldn't question whether God is telling me to witness or show kindness. I'm sinful by nature. I should know it's not my idea. "I speak to you in holy whispers." Once again, that is such a struggle for me! I'm not as busy as a lot of people, but I find myself getting distracted when I'm still and quiet. I have to put this into earthly terms that I can understand. Today Kaleb and I were rocking outside and it wasn't silent, but it was quiet. I talked to him about God and sang him Bible verses I'd learned as a kid. I know that he probably didn't understand a word I was saying, but it meant so much to me. Maybe that's the point. God cherishes those tender moments when we stop, sit in his lap, and listen to his message of love for us.
1 Kings 19:12 "And after the earthquake there was a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire there was the sound of a gentle whisper."
Psalm 5:3 "Listen to my voice in the morning, Lord. Each morning I bring my requests to you and wait expectantly."