I've had many plans recently. Big plans and little ones. I've wanted to make a tree skirt, make a cushion for this old rocking chair in the boys' room, make a cushion for the glider in the backyard, make a "ghost garden" for Halloween, finish the attic, take the kids to Disney World, and adopt. I'm sure you can sort the plans into big and little on your own. Eric and I have been talking about adopting lately. I love my boys, and I wouldn't trade them for anything, but I still don't feel like our family is complete. I would really like to have a daughter.
Call it motherly instinct or whatever, but there are things I'm sad about missing out on with only boys. And as Eric pointed out, most of them involve dresses or accessories. I always envisioned myself having a house full of girls -4 to be precise- and ended up with a house full of boys. I want to buy those adorable little dresses and headbands. I want to be able to take prom pictures of my kids (since they're always at the girl's house for the big reveal). I want to go wedding dress shopping. I want to paint fingernails and cook together. Yes, I know that boys can cook, too, but it's different. God calls his children to adopt and care for those in need.
The thing is, the house we just bought has only 2 bedrooms. I love our house. It's cute and charming and amazing. But it only has 2 bedrooms. Not really any room for another child. Thus the idea to finish the attic and turn it into 2 more bedrooms and a bathroom. It's not a terribly big attic, but I think two smallish rooms would fit up there. If we did that we'd also have to make a staircase. This seems like it's going to add up pretty quickly. We don't have an estimate or anything yet.
As I was thinking about all of these things I want to do, I realized that even though there is a lot up in the air concerning some of these decisions, someone already knows what's going to happen. God is already 5 years down the road in my future. He knows if I have a job in Jones County, if we have another little one added to our family, if our attic is finished or if we're even in the same house. He knows it all. And while I still struggle with my personal timeline, it's comforting to know that nothing is going to be a surprise for God. That He's going to see our family through everything.
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I, too, feel like our family may have a missing piece... a daughter. But for me, It's more about adoption. I want to give a child a chance at life that my mom and dad gave to me. I have also been drawn to a couple of boys that I wish I could give them forever homes. Robbie had a friend that was a foster child and that family wasn't really a good fit for him. He moved again after Robbie's 5th grade year, but I wish I had pursued it. I have a friend whose nephew's own mother abandoned him. He's 16 now and was 13 at the time. He went to live with his grandparents but I help him every chance I get. He's a good kid despite everything that has happened to him. I'm drawn to boys... I suppose it's because my own 3 tug at my heart so much and complete me. Maybe I'm just meant to mold these boys into men. I see granddaughters in my future, haha. I will keep yall in my prayers for what may be. If it's God's will, it shall be done, whether yall adopt or we adopt, it's all in His timing and where He leads us. God bless you for wanting to give a child a forever home. I know that certainly means something to me!!!
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